Beating Stigmas Like I Beat My Face.

I could have just taken his car for a drive, but instead I chose to go in. But why? 

What happened to her? “She was raped, she got into it with her family, her job is to blame, she was doing too much, she was stressed, she let these men inside her head, she’s street who cares, she’s suicidal, she’s playing, that girl is about to kill herself.” These are the perspectives I was faced against when walking back into society after an episode. The killer part is one doesn’t realize those are all the things you don’t do when one has an episode. It’s rude and almost turned me away from my dreams and goals.

I could have just laid on the tracks and let my good hair go to waste, but I’m here remaining natural instead. 

“Your gold, that girl needs to be seen, she needs some coaching, it’s you, she need kids, they’re about to get engaged, our it girl is a business owner, she has degrees, she coaches cheer, this is our career.” Are all great attention getters, but why holla when you can approach and talk to keep down the confusion of who we are talking about. Words of this context made me leave my career with Chicago Park District, due to the fact that people seemed to talk at me instead of to me, and eventually chose to share the perspectives they were hearing, Pushing me to just leave. Plus who sit stagnant for more then five years?

moving and starting new is always an option.

To be serious, COVID WAS AND IS A  MESS FOR US ALL. So not only was it me but it was also you, who had an episode documented or undocumented, we are here, accepting one’s ignorance, mainly because we understand Chicago’s culture a bit better. Choosing to not always speak up, but instead let one vent to identify the problems we are faced with, has reshaped this city.

To be Honest, I gained a better understanding of my moms life and why my pops wasnt suppose to be it for her.

So regardless of if it was PTSD, a manic high, a manic low, a game, or learning experience, just know the truth is, it’s in me. I am a survivor of adversities. So all I got ta say as one of “Chicago’s It Girls' ' is I’ll have fun meeting you at my events. 

P.S. If it’s not hosted by I, you can load in, shoot up, and perform all you like, but just know I’m still surpassing all my sigmas, and you can get out. In other words if you catch me out and about, it can easily be a meet and greet. 

Can’t wait to see you all in 2024!

Sincerely,

Renate L Ware